Thoughts.
Warning: May stumble out of verse.

One thing that really hurts my heart on some days
is the fact that both of us have grown
and learned
and lived
so much
since we last have been apart of each other's
lives.

There are so many things
that I didn't know about myself
back
then.

And I know there are so many things
you got to know about yourself
that I am unaware of.

It brings tears to my eyes,
because I long to know every minuscule
detail
of your being.

And I long for you to know me.
Some of the things are big...
But even the small things
like hot tea
that I never appreciated
until those cold nights
when I wasn't used to not having you
and the depression was too much
to take on alone.

I want to know you.
The you that exists today,
but I don't.
I know the you that existed
but I feel that part of you
has fallen asleep
since then.

                                                                                                                          Feelings being locked up.
                                                                                                                                 Back to life as usual.